Society can be confusing.
We are told to love the way we look, but yet, there is so much propaganda geared towards body shaming and quick fixes in dieting.
People are fat-shamed. People are skinny-shamed. Yet, so many people tell us to love who we are, but that can be so difficult with the amount of contrasting statements telling us otherwise.
Body image is tough. I know very few people who truly love the way they look all the time, and that is pretty sad.
I don’t love my body every day either. There are days when I still feel like I am at my highest weight and will never reach my “goal” weight. other days, I feel awesome about my progress and am in no rush to lose more weight. It will happen when it happens. Even though I have lost over 52 pounds, it still hasn’t gotten much easier, but I have made quite a big difference in my attitude.
While I still have days when I don’t feel as great, I never feel bad about my body. I never put myself down anymore.
Well, it’s simple: I am where I am, and that’s that.
If you lose weight the right way, it may take some time. It isn’t always easy to be patient, but it’s worth it when you do see the difference. It makes you feel like your hard work is paying off, and nothing beats that.
It is awesome to get to buy new clothes, hear from people around you that you’re losing weight, and to see it yourself. Weight loss really is an awesome experience that isn’t always easy (or hardly ever), but is oh-so rewarding.
I feel that I am doing something good for myself. I’m eating healthy, I’m exercising, I’m enjoying my life. All of these are much more important than a number on the scale. You know the saying that they tell you in High School: You Are More Than Your Numbers? Well, this applies to weight loss and body image as well. What the scale doesn’t measure is your hard work and how you feel.
I acknowledge that I could have lost weight a lot faster had I had eaten less calories throughout the last few months. Here’s the thing, that sounds miserable to me. Feeling hungry all the time is so uncomfortable to me. Plus, with how much I work out and study regularly, it would really get to me. I’d probably binge eventually. Instead, I am eating 1800-2200 calories per day, and am feeling awesome! I feel like it’s almost always enough to get through my active days. During the weekend, I am more open to eating junk food on occasion, I also give myself one day per week to drink alcohol if I feel like it. I don’t go crazy, but I am more carefree. I think that this is perfectly ok. I am a 21-year old who likes to have nachos and pizza (vegan of course!). I also like a cocktail every now and then. Nobody has to feel guilty about that. It is all about balance. As long as you are eating well most days, your weight will take care of itself in time. Just be patient and find other things to focus on other than your weight.
I reached my highest weight around a year ago, and I felt horrible about myself. One year later, I am at the lowest weight that I have been in the last 5 years. I still have a long ways to go, but I am realizing that the road to health doesn’t really have a destination. I will always be able to improve in how I eat, how I feel, and my fitness levels. This is only the start of a lifelong journey of self-love and improvement. I have put so much work into this last year, and for that, I could never feel bad about my body. I have made great progress, and frankly, I’m proud. My past decisions are irrelevant. What matters is what I am doing now, and where I am going.
If you ever feel down, remember that you are only human. It takes time to see a change, and it takes time to change habits. Wherever you are in your progress, don’t doubt yourself. You just have to believe that you are doing something good for yourself, and realize that sometimes good things take time. It will be worth it in a year, I promise. You just have to stick with it!
I think that you can learn to love your body now, and if you do, the whole process gets so much easier. If you love your body and love yourself, you are more likely to take care of yourself, and that is what really counts in the end. Not a waist measurement, not a six pack, not a number on the scale. It’s all about how you feel on the inside and the outside. It is about respecting yourself. I realize that this is easier said than done because I struggle with it as well, but trust me, life gets better when you start prioritizing self-respect.
I can say that while I have not reached all of my goals yet, I am so proud of where I have come, and I can’t wait to see where I can go. Either way, I pledge to never feel bad about myself. I will never apologize for struggling with my weight. I am done feeling guilty and disliking myself.
It is all up from here, and it’s because I am finally the one who is deciding it.
Don’t be ashamed of respecting yourself regardless of where you are in life.